• A glimpse of the future.

    I've had to learn a lot about anxiety this year. I've learnt that it affects more people than we realise*. I've observed that it affects individuals differently. I've heard stories of many courageous men and women who give voice to their experiences with anxiety. 

    There are many causes of diagnosed anxiety and mine was the result of some serious burn out. To live in an age where there is significant medical research and professional help available to those who suffer from mental health issues is beyond my understanding. I am entirely grateful for the pioneers, advocates, researchers and champions that have brought us this far. 

    Anxiety often leaves me in the dark; unable to feel the warmth of yellow (community), unable to predict a storm (panic attacks) and unable to lift my gaze from the valley (depression/inertia). I've learnt that faith in Jesus does not mean immunity any more than we should expect to be immune to the flu. It's been a steep learning curve; a curve I may or may not see the tail end of soon. But it is precisely faith in Jesus which helps me to know that God is concerned with all my thoughts - the good and the bad. On the cross, he entered darkness so that we might have hope, that brokenness like anxiety, will one day be a problem no more. His life is our life. His future is our future. 

    Thank you to all the yellow in my life who help me to see this truth. You are a glimpse of a glorious future. 

    'If I say, 'Surely the darkness shall cover me, 
    and the light about me be night,'
    even the darkness is not dark to you;
    the night is bright as the day,
    for darkness is as light with you.'
    Psalm 139:11-12
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    My final post for the year comes after a week ‘unplugged’ from social media and phone usage. Fortunately, I was able to share some of this time with others IRL. 

    Sitting across the table from me is a friend, sister and fellow sojourner on this earth. As she began to unravel the events, the people, the prayers and the emotions which brought her to the end of 2018, I realize that she is not alone. Many of us catch ourselves in moments of deep reflection in the final weeks of a year. Sometimes accidentally, sometimes deliberately. 

    The best days of 2018 are over, and incomparable to the eternal joy of being known by God through Christ.

    The worst days of 2018 are over, and remind us to endure in and entrust our all to Christ.

    All that our days have seen this year and all the days yet unseen – may we remember that Christ will hold us fast. Our lives are not for us to weigh, but for the glory of the one who seeks and saves the lost. Till our faith is turned to sight when he comes at last, Christ will hold us fast.

    When I fear my faith will fail
    Christ will hold me fast
    When the tempter would prevail
    He will hold me fast
    I could never keep my hold
    Through life’s fearful path
    For my love is often cold
    He must hold me fast

    He will hold me fast
    He will hold me fast
    For my Savior loves me so
    He will hold me fast

    Those He saves are His delight
    Christ will hold me fast
    Precious in His holy sight
    He will hold me fast
    He’ll not let my soul be lost
    His promises shall last
    Bought by Him at such a cost
    He will hold me fast


    For my life He bled and died
    Christ will hold me fast
    Justice has been satisfied
    He will hold me fast
    Raised with Him to endless life
    He will hold me fast
    Till our faith is turned to sight
    When he comes at last


    ‘To him who is able to keep you from stumbling and to present you before his glorious presence without fault and with great joy— to the only God our Savior be glory, majesty, power and authority, through Jesus Christ our Lord, before all ages, now and forevermore! Amen.’ (Jude 24-25)